Sunday, April 06, 2014

I want Jesus to Come Back

I really don't know how else to say it. I long for Heaven. Now, some of you...who did not see the size of the spider that I killed today (by the grace of God) think that I already live in paradise.
But....I want Jesus to come back.
Unfortunately, I look around....and we are not ready. I've been reading in the old testament....and I feel like I'm living in the Old testament.
Today, my pastor shared a verse...Galatians 4:31."Therefore, brothers and sisters, we are not children of the slave woman, but of the free woman."
Well, the reality was...in that moment...that the girl sitting beside me, who we brought to church today from our project...was in fact....a child of, for all intents and purposes....a slave woman. That is the harsh reality of her life. She is owned, by fear and retribution by a horrible man....and I'm putting it mildly.
I've been watching these girls over the last 5 months. Some of them are changing...for the better, but some of them seem to be going backwards a bit. I understand the struggle...and even the age. So young....but so much has happened in the past. When confronted by the unknown, we all tend to revert to our comfort zone...as ugly as it may seem...at least it is familiar.
The Lord...continues to bring something to mind for me...these last few days....whispers...into my heart......'love them like Hosea loved Gomar.' ....and again and again, these words are whispered in my ear and written on my heart.
And honestly....I don't know how to do that yet. I mean, I love them...but there is a line between love and bringing someone back when they've run off once again....and protecting the rest of the girls.
Tonight, I sat down and read all of Hosea once again...just to be clear...and I am shocked...at the parallels of that society to this one.....altars to false gods in most businesses and houses.....sexual sin that is ingrained in childhood. Sin after sin is repeated again and again...with no thought to God, but they go on their way, raping the women and offering sacrifices of bread and fruit to a dead god.

I don't know what else to say tonight...as I've been pondering this the past few days....I want to add a link for you to check out. I put it on my Facebook a while back, not sure if  you read it....it needs to be read.....

http://www.cambodiadaily.com/archives/un-report-says-1-in-5-cambodian-men-have-raped-42122/

Please give it a read....say a prayer...and you will understand....

Why I want Jesus to come back.

3 comments:

  1. Again, a wonderful, heart-felt post, Robyn. And again, my heart aches for you and worries about the state of YOUR heart. These situations must rip you apart; knowing God and knowing that this is not what He intends for these girls, this society. But we all must find Him on our own. Yes, an introduction is necessary, but to know Him, we must connect personally.

    You must feel so much hurt, anger, fear and regret when these girls turn "back" to what they know, what is the "normal" of life for them. You KNOW that you're putting them on the right path, but they do not yet understand that; they just know what kept them safe before. How awful for them, and how patient you need to be to keep trying. I'm not sure I could do what you and your organization does without wanting to literally kill the people who put the children in this position. I am not yet that far along into my relationship with our Healer.

    I pray for you several times daily, and every night before I sleep. I worry that not only will you have physical safety - a BIG deal - but that your soul will remain intact and tuned to God. A bigger deal yet, I suppose.

    These girls are blessed by your presence in a way they will not understand for a long, long, loooooong time, I fear. But they will one day be praising your name, and not just for physically removing them from their life of slavery.

    Praying that you know how much we all miss you and admire you, Robyn.

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  2. Robyn, reading this made my heart heavy but will pray for you and those you are helping. The one thing I'm learning reading the bible is that man makes the mistakes thru out the bible but God will forgive us if we confess our sins and ask Christ into our heart. I know you are having a tough time but have strength that you are doing God's will. Sorry this is Charity's old client who met you before you left Denis. PS I have ask Christ to be my savior and have been baptized so God is making a difference every day

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  3. Robyn, I would like to make your acquaintance on fb. Im Deborah Nunn Corona. Your an awesome women of God!

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