Friday, August 16, 2013

In Gilmore Girls fashion...."Where He Leads, I will follow"....even if it means Cambodia

Also, I heard the voice of the Lord saying, 'Whom shall I send, and who will go for us?'..........And I said.....to myself....."Whatever you do...Don't make eye contact."     (Robyn's version of Isaiah 6:8)

And so begins this blog, that I have been writing in my mind for a few months....searching for words....and searching for the heart to write it.
A few months ago......May 3rd, to be exact....I was sitting at one end of our country....in a Conference.  It was the last day, and I was excited to go home...so sleep in my bed, to spoon with my dog; to resume Thursday night date nights with my nephews....and Friday night prayer group.
A woman came into the room...which so far was empty...and sat behind me...an attractive, friendly woman (just in case she reads this), and we began to visit. She asked how many kids I had...and without missing a beat....I told her, "3. Two Cambodians and a Chihuahua"  I then went on to explain that I sponsor two teen girls because the sex trade in that country is high....and I wanted to do my part. I've seen the devastation sexual abuse can bring.
I then said....in a dream like voice...that I thought it would be cool, to run a rehabilitation home for girls rescued in the sex trade in Cambodia some day. Please understand....this is a pipe dream...like being skinny...or a runner...it will probably never happen....but it's fun to dream.
There was a bit of a look of surprise on her face, as she explained that she worked with an organization that recently had done just that....and the reality was....they were looking for a new Project Director.

My inner dialogue went as follows.....crap, crap, crap, crap, crap...what did I just say???!!!

She politely explained the organization, the job description and the current workers there...and my mind raced with the implications of this conversation. There were several "coincidences" which I chose not to include the Lord in. ....and I remember trying to change the subject. I told her that I had a 6:10 flight to Calgary that evening...and again, surprise registered with her as she replied, "I have a 6:10 to Calgary."


AAAAAHHHHHHH

I suggested we talk  at the airport.
Several hours later, I sat....in the corner of the airport...not making eye contact.....with anyone...when she approached. (If only I had bought a wig) She sat down beside me....gently speaking encouraging words to me...and I sat there, feeling defensive and  coming up with excuses.
" But I have a puppy dog!", I said.
"You can't bring your puppy dog," she said.
"But I like real toilets!" I said.
"You can have a real toilet," she said.

And then I knew....there was only one more question to ask....that would qualify this as the hand of God....and so....with fear and trepidation.....I took a deep breath....and asked it.
"Hey....where you sittin?"
"9B," she said.
"Oh, good," I said, " I'm in 9C." I guess that settles it.

And so began the flight that has changed my future. If all goes as planned, I will be moving to Siem Reap, Cambodia, sometime in November.

There have been so many miracles and confirmations since that day and today.....God has blown my mind with His ability to get things done...to move mountains...
There is so much more I want to say....like how 6 years ago, when I shared my testimony in my church for the first time...and went home and sobbed uncontrollably...with the rawness of being vulnerable...how God spoke into my soul, explaining that His glory would be revealed in His time. I'm starting to see that.
I want to tell you that, the only reason I am going, is because I choose to be obedient to God's calling....understanding, after preaching for 6 years that God has a plan for your life...that He also has a plan for mine. Not one I would have chosen. Not one I would have ever imagined, but His plan.
I want to tell you that I'm grieving the loss of sleeping in my bed, spooning with my dog, Thursday night date nights with my nephews, Friday night prayer groups, and so, so much more.
This hurts a lot. I will be selling all my things, and going to where He is calling, knowing that I am the daughter of the Most High God....and He has the final word in my life.
So, there it is. My big announcement....my life changing journey.

In the next few months, I will be, selling everything, like I said, and raising missionary support. If you would like more information on that, please let  me know. If you are a prayer, please pray...for me...and for God's faithful army, that are already there...working to rescue and restore young women to Him.

Then Jesus said to his disciples, “If any of you wants to be my follower, you must turn from your selfish ways, take up your cross, and follow me. 
 Matt 16:24



13 comments:

  1. Still trying not to think about it.

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  2. The great thing about God is this: He is the God of Canada and Ruby snuggles the same as He is God of Cambodia and running water. HE loves all nations the same and He has been preparing you for this for a long time. And ya, it hurts....like a lot....but You are SO MUCH the woman for this. I read through our conversations past last week....and some of it is just ridiculous while other parts are seriously annonited. God has his hands all over this. So ya....all the nations....go....do....live....love......and this: Isaiah 61: The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is on me,
    because the Lord has anointed me
    to proclaim good news to the poor.
    He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,
    to proclaim freedom for the captives
    and release from darkness for the prisoners,[a]
    2 to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor
    and the day of vengeance of our God,
    to comfort all who mourn,
    3 and provide for those who grieve in Zion—
    to bestow on them a crown of beauty
    instead of ashes,
    the oil of joy
    instead of mourning,
    and a garment of praise
    instead of a spirit of despair.
    They will be called oaks of righteousness,
    a planting of the Lord
    for the display of his splendor.
    4 They will rebuild the ancient ruins
    and restore the places long devastated;
    they will renew the ruined cities
    that have been devastated for generations.
    5 Strangers will shepherd your flocks;
    foreigners will work your fields and vineyards.
    6 And you will be called priests of the Lord,
    you will be named ministers of our God.
    You will feed on the wealth of nations,
    and in their riches you will boast.
    7 Instead of your shame
    you will receive a double portion,
    and instead of disgrace
    you will rejoice in your inheritance.
    And so you will inherit a double portion in your land,
    and everlasting joy will be yours.
    8 “For I, the Lord, love justice;
    I hate robbery and wrongdoing.
    In my faithfulness I will reward my people
    and make an everlasting covenant with them.
    9 Their descendants will be known among the nations
    and their offspring among the peoples.
    All who see them will acknowledge
    that they are a people the Lord has blessed.”
    10 I delight greatly in the Lord;
    my soul rejoices in my God.
    For he has clothed me with garments of salvation
    and arrayed me in a robe of his righteousness,
    as a bridegroom adorns his head like a priest,
    and as a bride adorns herself with her jewels.
    11 For as the soil makes the sprout come up
    and a garden causes seeds to grow,
    so the Sovereign Lord will make righteousness
    and praise spring up before all nations.

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  3. Robyn, I am so very, very proud of you. Of your courageous decision to go where God sends you, and your great heart for loving others, yet sad for your "loss" of your comforts, especially Ruby. I am certain you have a good foster home for her. And hey! You and she can Skype!

    I am overwhelmed with pride and anxiety (already) for your safety while you are in Cambodia and will pray regularly - starting now - for both you and your ministry. What an opportunity to not only share God with others, but to put His love into practice. Like you do now, every day. Every moment.

    Congratulations on taking another big step in your obedience to God and congratulations on “getting” the job.

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  4. Crying. Beautiful. And so excited to see (hopefully you'll keep sharing your journey) what God has in store for you, and through you.

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  5. Robyn....we only just met at Donna's this past year at Marlene's Baby Shower but I hear Donna mention you often. You will be in my prayers for sure. Last month I was at a conference and they showed about an hour clip of an organization working in Cambodia with these young girls being captured/raped and forced into the "Sex Trade" and I cried through most of it. As I sit here crying again and typing this; I can only tell you that you will be used mightily by God and you will be stretched beyond the boundaries of your own abilities to do what only God can do. Thank you for your courage and your willingness to be His Hand extended.

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  6. this is just extraordinary Robyn. praise God for leading so specifically, and congratulations on being leadable! what a potent mix.

    its a beautiful thing to watch, this kind of obedience. may you be blessed.

    if i wasn't laid up from a recent surgery, i'd come throw some money at your garage sale. i hope and pray it goes really, really well.

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  7. Wow. Wow. Wow... I hope you continue to blog.

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  8. WOW!! This song just popped to mind:

    All the way my Savior leads me,
    What have I to ask beside?
    Can I doubt His tender mercy,
    Who through life has been my Guide?
    Heav’nly peace, divinest comfort,
    Here by faith in Him to dwell!
    For I know, whate’er befall me,
    Jesus doeth all things well;
    For I know, whate’er befall me,
    Jesus doeth all things well.
    All the way my Savior leads me,
    Cheers each winding path I tread,
    Gives me grace for every trial,
    Feeds me with the living Bread.
    Though my weary steps may falter
    And my soul athirst may be,
    Gushing from the Rock before me,
    Lo! A spring of joy I see;
    Gushing from the Rock before me,
    Lo! A spring of joy I see.
    All the way my Savior leads me,
    Oh, the fullness of His love!
    Perfect rest to me is promised
    In my Father’s house above.
    When my spirit, clothed immortal,
    Wings its flight to realms of day
    This my song through endless ages:
    Jesus led me all the way;
    This my song through endless ages:
    Jesus led me all the way.

    We know He will continue to lead you just as He has brought you this far. We visited Siem Reap when we were in Cambodia. Warning: It will be difficult not to fall in love with the people very quickly. :)Praying

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  9. Hi Robin,
    I agree with many of the above comments, including the beauty of your obedience. What an amazing story He and you are writing together! :) You touched my life briefly at the conference you mentioned above, now you have touched it again! Please send me into for support! Laurel, Cochrane Centre
    While so difficult, it is truly a privilege and honor when His call is sooo clear.

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  10. Dearest Robyn,

    What an exciting journey He has you on. I have noticed His stirring in you for some time now, and here is His direction. You go girl! Share the stories of redemption with us from Cambodia as you blog so we can continue to pray specifically. Go in His strength and grace and give Him all the glory. When you come back to Canada you will have to share with us at a CAPSS conference once again.

    Blessings my friend, Lola

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  11. Daughter Jodi had already told me your amazing story. Wonderful example of just letting go and letting God work in our lives. Go in peace and serve the Lord.

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  12. Hi ,just finished watching a Church of the Rock message from Pastor Mark Hughes. In it he says the young rich man had done all the commandments and followed the laws. So Jesus asked him to sell all he had and follow Him. But sadly no he didn't and we never heard of him again. He lost the greatest opportunity ever. So glad you didn't Jodi. Looking forward to hearing about your following Jesus.

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  13. Robyn!

    Some folks pursue a "call"; sounds like the "call" pursued you. And you responded, with great openness and genuineness.What an inspiration for all of us! Cambodia receives a beautiful treasure as they embrace wonderful you.

    I look forward to reading your blog to learn of your journey as it develops....

    Many blessings, friend!
    Beth

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