I am on the cusp of possibly a life change....and trying to understand what it all means....wondering if my heart is strong enough to see the things I may see. I think about my current occupation...walking with broken, hurting women...and only by God's strength do I continue this journey.
There are days, when I wish, I could curl up in my bed....and never have to face the reality of this world again. Days where I could believe that no one is hurting, or broken, or taken advantage of. To choose an easy life of denial and ignorance.....the comfort of stretchy clothes without the discipline of self control....and yet...that is not who God has called me to be. (okay...I do wear stretchy clothes, but you get the idea)
This morning at a conference, we prayed this prayer....and it screamed out to me...as I mumbled along.
The Prayer of Sir Francis Drake
When our dreams have come true
Because we have dreamed too little,
When we arrived safely
Because we sailed too close to the shore.
With the abundance of things we possess
We have lost our thirst
For the waters of life;
Having fallen in love with life,
We have ceased to dream of eternity
And in our efforts to build a new earth,
We have allowed our vision
Of the new Heaven to dim.
To venture on wider seas
Where storms will show your mastery;
Where losing sight of land,
We shall find the stars.
We ask You to push back
The horizons of our hopes;
And to push into the future
In strength, courage, hope, and love.