Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Baby Girl

Your dreams are big, when they first place her in your arms. You learn together, parent and child. You dream together, parent and daughter. You plan, and improvise to give her your best. You hold her on your lap, and fill her mind with possibilities, as you read from Dr. Seuss' "Oh the Places You'll Go!"
You paint those tiny finger and toenails in bubble gum pink, and braid and clip her hair. She is perfect.

So, when does reality set in? Why does the story so often take these  princessess, once so cherished and beloved, to my office. Where does life go so horribly wrong, that the apple of one's eye, becomes the dreaded relative who you don't want to help.....the kid who doesn't listen, the girl who gets herself into trouble, who get's caught; the one who is abandoned, alone, confused, and hopeless, as she has left you heart broken, and hurting.

I'm taking it hard this week. I'm carrying burdens I shouldn't carry. But honestly....who else will carry them. Who else cares for the 16 year old who prostitutes herself, because her mom threw her out. Who else cares about the homeless mother of three, who got kicked out of her boyfriend's house because she cried. The woman, who's family won't help her, unless she aborts this baby.
I know the Sunday School answer. "Jesus cares."  And I get that. I do. But there are days, when one needs 'Jesus with skin on.'
 When hope is gone. When there seems to be no light at the end of the tunnel......I don't really know that my words mean much. It felt like they didn't today.

I know it's not about me. I know that I 'plant seeds.' But today, Jesus, just reveal yourself to them. Give them a glimmer of you.

And for the rest of you......love your daughters.

3 comments:

  1. You've been on my mind a lot this week. That also means you've been in my prayers:) So sorry your words feel empty. I'm sure that they are not. You are the glimmer of God that they see. Blessings to you for being willing to be in a place where God can break you, make you better and use you as he needs. We will pray for you.

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  2. You, Robyn. You are their 'Jesus with skin on'. This is what the great commission is all about. To go into all the world and tell them Jesus loves them. To be that love for them.
    That you carry these burdens with these women is their evidence that Jesus loves them.
    You're not just planting seeds. You are the fruit of the Spirit.
    I am in awe of the way God works in and through you - especially on the days when you're taking hard and you go out into all the world and do it anyway!
    And tonight I'm going to tell my daughter about this amazing friend I have...

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  3. Thanks for sharing your heart, angst and wrestling times today. You are not alone! Thanks for all you do for the young women who grace your office doors, who call in or email their cries for help. For sure, we can all do MORE, pray MORE, give MORE... and we will all answer to the One who asks us to speak up and nudges us to go the distance. Onward Christian soldier girl!

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