Thursday, November 18, 2010

All the Way My Savior Leads Me

I've had an opportunity to get to know myself this week. Faced with some very unpleasant circumstances and choices, I have been able to look at myself, my true self. I am unsure if I like what I see.
A couple of things I have noticed. When it comes to crisis, I am quickly becoming my like my father. I don't think this is a good or bad thing, it just is. I become very task oriented. If something needs to be done, I will do it. I won't like, I will feel frustrated and helpless inside, but.....I will do it. My feelings come secondary to the tasks at hand.
Another thing I have noticed......grace is easier said than done. Doling out grace to someone who has hurt you, or made your life inconvenient, is not a human characteristic that is simply acquired. It is a continual choice.
Something that has been freeing .....I have spoke truth this week. I have allowed light to shine in areas that have remained hidden for upwards of twenty years. In pain, and with love, I have spoken truth. The light is starting to expose what is black, and there is a slight shimmer of hope.
What Satan has fought to control, God intended for good......and so this night I pray for that shimmer of hope to continue.
Every night, most of them sleepless....has started with one song.....I play it simply on my guitar...singing the words....closing my eyes....and praying the prayer.......

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