Sunday, May 30, 2010

Obedience

I remember the day like it was yesterday....I was 25 years old, standing in the shower, sobbing my heart out, because I knew....that I was smack dab in the middle of God's will for my life.
I had auditioned and been accepted to sing full time in a quartet based out of North Carolina. I was leaving my home, everything I knew, everything comfortable,  to move to another country, to live with strangers .....mostly on a bus.....and sing. They were a family, and to them, I was the stranger, from a foreign land.
I remember standing in that shower, thinking, that in reality, I didnt have to go. I could change my mind. I could back down.
And yet.......God's call to obedience is a powerful one......but....one that includes the dying of myself, the breaking of my will.
This weekend, I had the same call.....to be obedient. And I have sobbed significantly as well.....because I knew, that in obedience, I was right smack dab in the middle of God's will.
This weekend, God asked me to share my story my past in front of about 800 people; the gory details of past abuses, sexual, mental and even physical. Some of these things, I would have rather kept silent.  I also got to share, the healing power of Jesus......
For others, today was about how the past can limit your relationships.....for me, today was about being obedient to what God asked of me.
I came home from church, feeling raw and empty....and so I crawled into bed, tears threatening once again........only to hear His whisper....."My glory will be revealed in My time."
Okay God....okay.

3 comments:

  1. Thank you so much for sharing your story today Robyn. It really touched my heart :)

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  2. It touched mine as well. You're a beautiful lady in so many ways, thank you.

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  3. I love you Robyn. I admire you for following God's call to you so dilligently. Satan doesn't want you to be happy now that you've followed God's will. Push through. I'll be at home praying you have a good day.

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