Wednesday, October 06, 2004

A new me.

I am having a challenging few days. I am a bit insecure of who I am. I am a bit worried....
Okay, so the truth? a boy that I have crushed on from a far, has a girlfriend, and she is pretty and skinny, and fun.
And I used to be those things, but now I am not so sure.....and so I look for ways to re-invent myself, to regain the self confidence I once had. How do you get that back?
The confidence I once had, was about my looks, my wit, my ability to think on my feet..my ability to turn heads......and I find myself wondering where those things went.
Am I getting old? Am I becoming the cougar I joke about...or just the old woman slob, that terrifies me.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........I believe that PMS is a large contributing factor of these days.
It amazes me, how normally sane women, can lose all ability to think rationally.
Okay, I gotta go and work out...that will help.

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