Saturday, May 08, 2004

Am I a fake?

A few minutes ago, as I stood at the sink washing my dishes at 10:35 pm, I wondered, am I a fake?
Tonite, I dyed my hair...my roots were getting bad, I showered and then sprayed on a tan...cas my legs are sooo white they are purple. And currently I am sitting here bleaching my teeth. Am I a fake?
I don't think I am vain....as a matter of fact, most of the time, I am probably too critical of myself. ...I can list off without even trying my physical shortcomings.....
Am I a real person? You bet, I will tell you how I feel...I will laugh with you, cry with you, and tease you a lot. I will try not to judge you and I will always give my best shot at unconditional love.
Am I fake? Am I too hung up on outward appearances? Why do I do these things to myself....bleaching and spraying and dyeing....I don't know...do I feel better about myself? Yes...I do....it doesn't make a difference who I am inside...I don't think........
Am I a fake?

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