Friday, February 27, 2004

In Love

I've been in love with someone for a while now. It isnt something I broadcast, but he definitely has a piece of my heart; a big piece.
I don't see him as much as I want to, life gets busy you know. I do enjoy spending time with him, teasing him.
I have loved him for as long as I remember. My earliest memory? Sitting on a hard wooden bench, listening to him preach. It was past my bedtime. It wasn't the words I remembered, as much as the soothing lull of his voice, the way it always gave me a sense of security. I sat in many benches in my life, listening to him. And the feeling was always the same. Safe, calm, peace.
As I sit before this screen, I pause, and remember all the things we did together. How we went places we ALWAYS had to go to Uncle Willy's restaurant....and how I hated it there.
I remember calling him when I didnt know what to do about certain situations, and he told me how he loved me and always prayed for me. I have heard many of those prayers...and have felt them to.
Today I found out that he is in a battle...with a disease; and I am at a loss. I wasn't expecting this. I don't know what to do. I don't know how to fix this. I am not prepared for this.
I feel like I am not taking this like a trouper. This isn't how I thought it would be.....and then again, maybe it's not about me.

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