Monday, February 02, 2004

I have this friend.
(No I am not talking about me...I AM actually talking about a friend)
I have this friend. I love her very much. She is close to my heart. A few months ago, she changed the outcome of her life, by making a huge decision. In making this decision, she affected several lives. I don't think it was a bad decision, as a matter of fact, I am glad that she made it before too many people got hurt.
Are ya with me so far?
The thing is, her life drastically changed, and in that place of uncertainty, she did what a lot of us have done. She rebelled.
Now I understand rebellion. Ask my parents, ask my brothers. I have definitely made my share of mistakes. And so, when this rebellion started, I watched, made comments, and waited, in faith for it to be over. And after some months, it was. She repented. I was grateful, a bit proud, for calling it so correctly, and we went on from there.
The story continues however.
Most recently she told me that she has returned to her old lifestyle. She isn't proud, she is sorry, but she can't seem to stop. She is not rebelling, she is making the conscious decision to continue on a path not meant for her.
And, for the first time, I am scared for her. I don't know what to do. I speak truth into her life, and she allows it because she knows I love her, and she knows I need to tell her.
I seriously thought of dragging her into a church and making her that will work.
In my career, I know how to change people's behavior. I tell them what they are doing is wrong, I show them the correct way, I let them try....a few times of this and they change....or they change jobs.
I don't know how to do this. To love someone, watch them make mistakes, and keep loving them.
This sucks.

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